AS YOU CAN SEE I HAVE DECIDED TO START A NEW BLOG. MY OTHER ONE WAS TO FINALLY GET MY LIFE IN ORDER AND I CAN'T SEEM TO DO THAT VERY F**KING GOOD SO I FIGURED I WOULD JUST HAVE A BLOG WHERE I CAN BITCH AND LET ALL THE INNER FRUSTRATION OUT CONSIDERING HALF THE TIME I DO MY BEST VENTING AFTER MIDNITE AND MOST OF MY FRIENDS AREN'T AWAKE AFTER MIDNITE.

NOW I HAVE INVITED A LIMITED FEW PEOPLE TO READ THIS BLOG. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO .. THEN DON'T. NO HARD FEELINGS. IT IS JUST A PLACE WHERE I CAN TYPE AND VENT AND IF SOMEONE WANTS TO READ / COMMENT / OR MAKE SUGGESTIONS......GREAT ...... IF NOT.... NO BIGGIE... I HAVE VENTED ANYWAYS!

SO TO START....YEP I KNOW I AM IN CAPS LOCK.....BUT I FEEL LIKE YELLING RIGHT NOW SO I AM CYBER-YELLING....HA HA!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT KINDA FEELS GOOD IN A WEIRD AND TWISTED SORT OF WAY. I HAVE HAD SUCH A SHITTY WEEK. MY BIRTHDAY WAS SHITTY....NO ONE GOT HOME UNTIL AFTER 7.....MOM DIDN'T MAKE IT OUT UNTIL AFTER 8..... KATH WAS TOO SICK TO SEE ME... DEE WAS BUSY.... AND WHEN STEVE DID FINALLY GET HOME HE KISSED ME AND I STARTED CRYING.... I WAS SO FRUSTRATED...... MY KIDS DON'T REPECT ANYTHING OF MINE..... WHETHER IT'S MAKEUP, TOOTHPASTE, OR BATTERY OPERATED THINGS... YEP.. THAT'S RIGHT.... THEY SEEM TO THINK THAT IF IT'S MINE.... THEY CAN USE IT. AND I KNOW IT SEEMS PRETTY PETTY.....BUT I ACTUALLY WENT AND BOUGHT MYSELF A NEW TOOTHBRUSH, TOOTHPASTE AND LITTLE MOUTHWASH JUST FOR ME..I HID THEM UNDER MY SINK...... WELL CAN U IMAGINE MY SURPRISE WHEN I PULLED THEM OUT TODAY AND THE MOUTHWASH IS 2/3 GONE??????? WTF????????? THEN I LOOKED AT THE NOSE THINGIES I BOUGHT.... I THINK THEY ARE CALLED BREATHE-RIGHT STRIPS? YOU KNOW....THOSE THINGS THAT FLARE OPEN YOUR NOSE WHEN YOU ARE SLEEPING SO YOU CAN BREATHE EASIER? WELL I BOUGHT A 5 PACK FROM THE LOONIE STORE...HID IT IN A DRAWER IN MY ROOM, PULLED THEM OUT AND VIOLA!!!! 3 ARE MISSING......HOW NICE OF THEM TO LEAVE ME 2 !!!!!! SO YEAH....WHEN STEVE GOT HOME I WAS BAWLING MY EYES OUT..... IT'S MY BIRTHDAY I CAN CRY IF I WANT TO....AND I DID.
THEN THURSDAY I WORKED ALL DAY.....HAD TO COME HOME AND CLEAN UP FROM AMBER......SHE TORE THE BATHROOM APART....SHITHEAD DOG.....AND THEN MAKE DINNER CAUSE MY KIDS ARE LAZY.....THEN I PUT MY ASS TO BED EARLY.
FRIDAY...TODAY OR YESTERDAY WHICHEVER WAY U WANNA LOOK AT IT..... I WOKE UP WITH FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK....YEP A 10 ON THE RICHTER SCALE..... SO TOOK AN ATIVAN......DID THE WALK AND TALK TO BRING IT DOWN.... AND WENT BACK TO LAY DOWN FOR A BIT....KEY WORD.....A BIT. THAT'S WHAT I WANTED TO DO ANYWAY.. BUT I ENDED UP ASLEEP UNTIL 2:30...... AND I HAD TO BE AT WORK AT 3!! JUMP UP AND INTO CLOTHES AND OFF TO WORK..... GET HOME AT 7 AND GUESS WHAT? THE HOUSE IS A MESS, ASHLEY HASN'T EATEN, STEVE ISN'T HOME, THE TWINS AREN'T HOME, LIZ HAS TORNADOED THE WHOLE HOUSE AND SHE IS IN THE KITCHEN CUTTING SHANE'S HAIR. NO DINNER....NO NOTHING!! I WALK INTO THE LIVING ROOM THAT I CLEANED THE OTHER DAY SO WE COULD PUT THE TREE UP......AND TORNADO LIZ HAD STRUCK IN THERE TOO....WONDERFUL!!!!!!! NEEDLESS TO SAY I MADE A LIST FOR MY WONDERFUL CHILDREN TO DO ...BEFORE I GET HOME FROM WORK AT 3 OR THEY ALL LOSE THEIR CELL PHONES FOR A WEEK. BETTER GET DONE OR IT'S GONNA BE A LONG WEEK. AND AMBER STRUCK AGAIN....NOW I LITERALLY DON'T HAVE A BATHROOM FLOOR....ARGH!!!!!!

ANYWAYS, OFF TO BED.....GOTTA BE AT WORK IN 6 1/2 HOURS

HUGS AND BITCHES, ME